2006!!

It's strange to know it's 2006! wow. Another year gone by... I wonder what kind of changes will happen this coming year.

The other nite things would have definitely made 2006 different. Very close to being 'on the market' again.

I always tell myself to keep some of my thoughts to myself or wait for the right moment. But, I dunno. Some things I just can't keep bottled up. If there's something bugging me... I have to let it be known.

I can say I feel a bit more secure in my relationship with Dan. But, I'm still scared. Scared that my heart will be broken. They say it's better to fall for a person who loves you more. It's definitely more secure that way. But, does it make a relationship last longer?

I do have to say ... some things that he said did hurt.

Hurt enough for me to say in the end that we shouldn't be together. At that point in time... I could live with that decision. Of course, I would have cried my heart out..felt very lonely and lost for a while... but I truthfully would have been fine and could have survived. The last time he broke my heart... it took a couple of months to get over the pain but ya see the pain did go away.

BUT.. for one reason or another.. we decided to give it another go. I just hope it's not fear that's keeping us together. I hope it's more love, respect, and believing we're able to make each other happy being together than being apart that's keeping us together.