Point of View
Interesting finding the same situation perceived so many different ways.
Lucy: Did you talk to my sisters?
Dan: Yea, I tried to talk with them but I didn't feel like they wanted to talk.
Lucy: Did you talk to Dan?
Nga/Huong: I tried but the minute I turned around he was running off or he was talking to someone else.
Neither party is to blame. Each person went away feeling different. I can't say either one didn't try or put enough effort...because from where they were coming from they did. I guess I've been trying to force things to happen and when it doesn't work out my way... I get so upset.
Having the bonfire party is a good setting to get ppl together but not the best to have deep conversations. You get pulled here and there. It's rough.
Last nite was rough...hearing Dan tell me how he feels about my family's perception of him.. him feeling that he'll be judged and becoming insecure and not feeling like he could be himself around them. I hate hearing it. I want to make him feel better but I keep saying the wrong things. I left him thinking this could be the end of our relationship. He can't really start afresh. The evil thoughts I put into his head can't be erased and he can't act naturally. Oy. All my fault.
Seeing him today and having the same conversation over again.. I had a lump in my throat when I eventually said 'Maybe this wasn't meant to be'. I was somewhat relieved to have it out there but scared to know what the response was going to be. I didn't want to break up but if he felt that this was an irreconcilable problem.. then it'll have to be done. I did told him that I love him for who he is. I know he isn't everything that my parents expect the person I should be is... but it's my happiness not theirs. And one of the main thing is they don't know him yet. They don't know what a good person he is. They've only seen him a total of three times. I let him know I'll always stand by him and I'll fight for him...but I have to know if he's able to muddle through the whole situation. I guess I said the right words since we're still together. Relationships are so hard... I love this one too much to let it go.
Lucy: Did you talk to my sisters?
Dan: Yea, I tried to talk with them but I didn't feel like they wanted to talk.
Lucy: Did you talk to Dan?
Nga/Huong: I tried but the minute I turned around he was running off or he was talking to someone else.
Neither party is to blame. Each person went away feeling different. I can't say either one didn't try or put enough effort...because from where they were coming from they did. I guess I've been trying to force things to happen and when it doesn't work out my way... I get so upset.
Having the bonfire party is a good setting to get ppl together but not the best to have deep conversations. You get pulled here and there. It's rough.
Last nite was rough...hearing Dan tell me how he feels about my family's perception of him.. him feeling that he'll be judged and becoming insecure and not feeling like he could be himself around them. I hate hearing it. I want to make him feel better but I keep saying the wrong things. I left him thinking this could be the end of our relationship. He can't really start afresh. The evil thoughts I put into his head can't be erased and he can't act naturally. Oy. All my fault.
Seeing him today and having the same conversation over again.. I had a lump in my throat when I eventually said 'Maybe this wasn't meant to be'. I was somewhat relieved to have it out there but scared to know what the response was going to be. I didn't want to break up but if he felt that this was an irreconcilable problem.. then it'll have to be done. I did told him that I love him for who he is. I know he isn't everything that my parents expect the person I should be is... but it's my happiness not theirs. And one of the main thing is they don't know him yet. They don't know what a good person he is. They've only seen him a total of three times. I let him know I'll always stand by him and I'll fight for him...but I have to know if he's able to muddle through the whole situation. I guess I said the right words since we're still together. Relationships are so hard... I love this one too much to let it go.
posted by Lu at 11:30 PM
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