Toys 'R Us Kid

Couldn't I be one FOREVER?!

it was simplier back then...

After my stressful conversation with Ba and Me(.) ... I came to realize that they're much easier to come to and talk with. Although even at the next conversation, I'll still be scared. I still have visualizations of them saying "NO" and being unreasonable.

I guess it's just how I remember it when I was a kid. They wouldn't let me sleep over at anyone's house. The early curfews. The no-boyfriend rule. Feeling the need to know ALL my friends.

And when I think back on everything they did... it was their way of looking out for me. And they'll still be doing it now ...but I see a more understanding feel from them. They see me as their youngest... but also see that I'm able to take care of myself.

Deciding to purchase this house with Dan is wearing on me. I'm taking a step back to look at everything in an unbiased way. The Pros. The Cons. Doing more research on the area, the school. Figuring out whether I could see myself there for a few years. Seeing how the future would be with Dan. Which company I see myself working with. How's the commute. It's like every issue that could come up... is coming up.

It's a very stressful decision. I almost feel like I WANT someone to make it for me.... but that's no good. I am getting almost every single person's advice... maybe tomorrow I'll show Ba the website and then later on show them where it is and get their advice some more.

whew. I feel a sleepless nite coming my way.